Driven to Suicide/Quotes

"It seems that my time is up. However, I will not die by your technique! Kenshiro... FAREWELL!!"

—Shin, Fist of the North Star

Angela: James, give me back that knife.
James: No. I, I won't.
Angela: Saving it for yourself?

—Silent Hill 2

"Forgive me, John. I never meant to do this. Oh God, forgive me."

—Magda Sorel converting her home into a Gas Chamber for herself, The Consul

"Why is 3 o'clock in the morning always the hour of choice to put on Nick Cave, get depressed and kill yourself? What's wrong with the middle of the day when everyone's awake and ready to call an ambulance? "

—Daniel, He Died With A Felafel In His Hand

When lovely woman stoops to folly
And finds too late that men betray
What charm can soothe her melancholy?
What art can wash her guilt away?
The only art her guilt to cover
And hide her shame from every eye
And giver repentance to her lover
And wring his bosom is - to die.

—The Vicar of Wakefield

I tried it five years ago. I was at a neighbor's house and fired a gun at my head. Nothing happened; it seemed empty. I fired it at a wall and put a bullet in it. So a minute later I found some Seconals in a medicine cabinet. I remember watching cartoons and taking the pills one by one. A neighbor lady found me and couldn't wake me up. I couldn't open my eyes or move, but I heard everything. I remember the lady shaking me and saying, "Oh, my God." I remember the ambulance people taking off my clothes and making me throw up. There wasn't any pain. I don't remember having my stomach pumped.
When I woke up it was five days later. A big black lady kept tickling me. "'Bout time you woke up," she said. "I've been tickling you for three days." I thought I was in heaven — it looked like some place in heaven for the misfits. Turned out I was in the basement of a free clinic, a long room with rows of beds with all kinds of teenagers, pregnant girls, suicides, drug addicts. We walked around in gowns, smoking cigarettes and watching TV. The reason I tried was I was angry at my mother, but when she came in she just said, "Why'd you do this — to try to get attention?"

Am I glad I was rescued? Oh yeah. I was so glad I didn't die. It made me realize how much I appreciate myself, because I had a glimpse of what I might have lost. I had some friends and I would've missed them. I didn't have to go home after that. They put me in a foster home. The State made me go to a psychiatrist. I never liked the man. I thought he had more problems than I did. I felt drugged and slow for a couple of years. Every now and then I'd take speed to feel normal. Downers still make me feel speedy. If I had a suicidal friend now I'd ask them, "Why don't you have any alternatives? Could it really be so awful?" That's what I say to myself now.

—Reflections

Music

He was found naked and dead
with a smile on his face, a pen and 1000 pages of erased text.

—Nightwish, "The Poet and the Pendulum"

No way out...suicide!

—Rage , "Suicide"

Holy lord, I'm falling fast — Bring me back!

—Testament, "Falling Fast"

I'm near the edge
I'm on the edge
I'm off the edge! JUMP!

—Forbidden, "Off the Edge"

I am reaching, but I fall
And the stars are black and cold
As I stare into the void
Of a world that cannot hold
I'll escape now from the world
From the world of Jean Valjean.
There is nowhere I can turn
There is no way to go on....

—Inspector Javert as he throws himself into the Seine river, Les Misérables (theatre)

I often drift while I drive
Havin' fatal thoughts of suicide
'Bang' and get it over with
And then I'm worry-free, but that's bullshit

—Scarface in "Mind Playin Tricks on Me" by Geto Boys

Just make sure you tell my family it's okay, I'm sorry
But it's too late, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me
I don't wanna live to see another day, I'm sorry
But I can't stay, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me

—Joyner Lucas, "I'm Sorry"

Suicide notes

"No More Games. No More Bombs. No More Walking. No More Fun. No More Swimming. 67. That is 17 years past 50. 17 more than I needed or wanted. Boring. I am always bitchy. No Fun — for anybody. 67. You are getting Greedy. Act your old age. Relax — This won't hurt."

—The suicide note of Hunter S. Thompson

To my friends: My work is done. Why wait?

—The suicide note of George Eastman, founder of Kodak

"I promise to get up and get out of the house every morning. I will stop by to visit my parents then go for a long walk. I will follow the doctor's orders for medications. I promise not to hurt myself. I promise not to visit Web sites that talk about suicide."

—Iris Chang, "Statement of Iris Chang"

Today, in the year of our Lord 2005,
Tuomas was called from the cares of the world.
He stopped crying at the end of each beautiful day.
The music he wrote had too long been without silence.

—Unknown

People say suicide is selfish. I think it's selfish to ask people to continue living painful and miserable lives, just so you possibly won't feel sad for a week or two. Suicide may be a permanent solution to a temporary problem, but it's also a permanent solution to a ~23 year-old problem that grows more intense and overwhelming every day.
Some people are just dealt bad hands in this life. I know many people have it worse than I do, and maybe I'm just not a strong person, but I really did try to deal with this. I've tried to deal with this every day for the last 23 years and I just can't fucking take it anymore.
I often wonder what life must be like for other people. People who can feel the love from others and give it back unadulterated, people who can experience sex as an intimate and joyous experience, people who can experience the colors and happenings of this world without constant misery. I wonder who I'd be if things had been different or if I were a stronger person. It sounds pretty great.
I'm prepared for death. I'm prepared for the pain and I am ready to no longer exist. Thanks to the strictness of New Jersey gun laws this will probably be much more painful than it needs to be, but what can you do. My only fear at this point is messing something up and surviving.

—Bill Zeller, suicide note